This is from an e-mail I sent to a Dominant friend. I decided to add it here in case someone feels the same or can offer some insight.

I have been thinking about pain lately. I haven't had much but when I have sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't like, or sometimes I don't really feel either way about it. Even when I have liked it, it doesn't turn me on...like usually the first thing my friend would do was give me a spanking and after that I wasn't turned on by it...I think I like pain better if I am already turned on, or I like the combination of pleasure and pain, like when I've had clothespins on my nipples and my clit rubbed at the same time. It just seems that most subs like pain and it's such a turn on for them, and so I start to wonder if I am really submissive, even though I know liking pain and submission are two different things. When I fantasize about pain I get turned on but when it actually happens it doesn't do anything for me. And with my limited experience I wonder if it's that I don't like pain or if it was because of other factors in the situation that caused me not to like it. Can a person learn to like pain?