BDSM Mommy

Picture this.. coming home from a particularly trying day, a single mom to my teen~aged son.. now, it is quite obvious when my day has been stress filled ~ my hair looks like who did it and ran. After my hug hi, my son drew back, and critically looked at me... Mom, you need a haircut!.. and me, without thinking, responded, No.. I can't do that. (inner OH SHIT!!) Ok, then comes the expected question; why not??.. because Dr. Wicked (not His name in my household, obviously.. lol!) wants me to let it grow. (Understand, at this point I am in too deep, realize what I've said, and am now just chuckling, waiting for the response and making light of the situation). My son, who knows his Mom very well, and knows she does what she wants, PERIOD.. looked at me quizzically.. What're you, some kind of man~slave or something? Now, the correct response would have been, No, dear, I am referred to as a submissive, NOT a slave.. lol.. but my response to him was now laughter and WHAT DID YOU SAY?? At which point my son turned red, and went into the next room.. after all, what teen~ager is going to admit cruising around those 'Adult Oriented' sites (Ahem!), and picking up these tidbits of knowledge? I followed him, still smiling, but having a point to make.. Do you think it is wrong to do something to please Someone, when They do all They can to please you?.. he looked at me and said, but MOM.. you're WHIPPED! (Lord help me, but it is SO hard to have these conversations with a straight face sometimes!!) I looked at him and questioned, If Someone is doing all They can for me ~ you had best believe I will do whatever it is I can to make Him happy. Think about it.. it is common sense! At which point I left the room, and waited until he went to his friend's house to begin this page. Now, Dr. Wicked teases me sometimes, saying 'Bad Mommy!' when I scurry in to make these pages then clear out all traces from my puter before my son returns.. but that is the least of it. A submissive Mom should not hide her submission in front of her child.. to a degree, in my opinion. I am not collared, and so do not wear one, so that is not a problem; protocol is not Dr. Wicked's primary concern with me, so that also causes no concern. However ~ His likes and dislikes are always considered primarily, and openly so.. my son has watched me jump to fill His glass, get the phone, and myriad other small things He might wish. My son has attempted to get the same response from me in Dr. Wicked's absence.. Woman, get me a drink! (Aside from the fact that my Master has NEVER addressed me that way, either in public OR private, shows me these little tests are the child's way of.. hmmmm.. attempting his own mastery over Mom.) My response is simply.. um, I KNOW you are not talking to ME..lol!.. at which point he laughs, and serves himself. Children are not blind, nor are they stupid. They pick up on the same signals others do, regarding their parents. It is my job, in my household, to demonstrate a few things, simultaneously.. that it is not a sign of weakness to give to Another, no matter who it is, so long as They deserve the respect they are given; that a person can be both submissive to Another, yet remain strong and firm in disciplinary decisions in that same household; and that such giving creates joy, and is not something to scoff at. Perhaps one day I will tell him the total truth of our relationship; but not until he has learned the lessons behind it, and understands clearly that while sex is involved, it is hardly the reason for a D's Lifestyle choice. Hopefully, that day will come.