The Search for An Explanation.. (sub~Space)
I have an odd quirk to my nature... it is difficult, no, impossible, for me to accept something if I do not understand it. When that something is my mind.. hmm.. "flipping over the edge", I had many questions, indeed. Now, please understand ~ this has always been an incredible experience for me, just so far out of my normal realm that I was unsure of my own perceptions.. perhaps even sanity. What is the phenomenon of "sub-space", and what, exactly, causes it? How does restraint fit in, or sharp quick pain at a certain moment just.. send my mind away? I questioned my Master.. lol.. fortunately for me, He has endless patience with me! But curiosity set in after He had gone, so I set out on a search; trying to find out why my mind was behaving so oddly. I found a web page detailing endorphins effect on a submissive.. for those interested, here's the link - a possible physical reason.. http://public.diversity.org.uk/deviant/sspain.htm At this point, the length of our time together increased, and proportionately, the trips into subspace. I had been assured by Dr. Wicked I was not alone in this phenomenon, but my own self~doubts still lingered. (Any Masters reading these pages will probably come to the conclusion that They are well blessed not to be saddled with a sub with such insatiable curiosity, and They are probably right.. lol!.. but Dr. Wicked is NOT, as previously mentioned, just ANY Master. For Him, questioning and searching for knowledge is a good thing, and something to be encouraged, at all costs.)




