I spoke to a Master conversant with subspace. Our conversation began with my explaining the feeling/sensation/place that I visit.. I'm usually pitched from intense feeling, emotion and connection with the world around me to complete isolation. All physical feeling ceases to exist, sounds do not penetrate, there is literally nothing there aside from complete blackness; the only thing in my conciousness is emotion. Sometimes an overwhelming peace.. sometimes a joy, so intense it causes tears... but in all these cases, no rational thought is involved. My search for an explanation had extended further due to a new wrinkle - our last episode had resulted in "passing through" the black place, to one completely red.. in this one, Dr. Wicked was waiting, arms outstretched and smiling.
I then gradually come back to this world with Dr. Wicked's low growly voice in my ears, feeling His caresses, my entire body shaking tremendously, with no strength whatsoever.
Well, needless to say, after the last episode, I was convinced I was ready for a straight jacket. After my detailing this, the Master began explaining. The human brain has different levels of thought, each responsible for different functions. The one which predominates during a "trip" basically disassociates the concious mind from the world around it, working only with the level which runs the body's autonomic responses. I then received my first GOOD laugh after an entire afternoon of scientific conversation - the Master in question told me, quite simply, that although He was able to bring subs to this level, He was not particularly fond of it.. as they, basically, did not obey anymore! We then shared a laugh, and I proceeded on my way, happy that things were finally beginning to click in my mind.
I then discussed this with Dr. Wicked, who further explained the information I had received. The submission aspect entered into the picture in one simple way.. because I trust completely and give myself over, He can basically do with me as He will. Knowing me as well as He does, it is a simple thing to "push the right buttons".. getting me to the point where I am, quite literally, on overload, and finally completely let go. Where I travel to, how often and how far, depends on the intensity of the session.. and what Dr Wicked plans for the evening!
Have to say it - it feels SO good to have one's questions finally answered.. also to have a Master who understands and enourages me, no matter the road or question I choose to follow.
*Belated Note- there are times that my lack of knowledge and experience in this Lifestyle are made so apparent to me, I have to laugh.. laughter caused by realizing this, like everything else in life, is a learning experience! After this page was completed, my questions answered, I found this page in my surfing - it has many different subs' experiences of subspace... it is a part of a larger site devoted to submissives, their questions, thoughts and basic doctrines. Here's the link, for those who are interested!
http://come.to/subnation
Happy reading!
